am currently listening to almost lover by a fine frenzy (:
it's the song for the choreo i learn last night and it's very fun!
esp the partner work -dont know how to spell the exact term hoho x)- with dana, my dear da niau! :D:D:D
i think im gradually accepting slow songs through my instructor, ryan's choreography.
and perhaps being more open mind to alot of other issues as well.
indeed i have learn alot of things through his classes.
and last night's class was self-body-exploration or something.
which actually he has been emphasizing since first few lessons? -haha-
he wants us to have the freedom in dance and not restrict ourselves into genres which i totally agree :D
however, sometimes when doing his choreo, i still am unable to let go fully and dance to my potential or even beyond. so .\/. !
but oh well last night was pretty much enjoyable and it reminds me of how i enjoyed the first lesson.

i remember that i got v.excited about the first choreo i learn as it was something very new to me.
the first thing i got home that night was to listen to the song on youtube and dance to it! haha!
however, as time passed, i wonder if i do get alittle tied down by choreo or techniqually im not as good or my low self esteem is acting up again. -grumbles-
which lead me to have temptation of skiping ryan's class.
but thankfully, i did not exactly give in to my temptation.
so far i have only skipped once if im not wrong and that is because i had to help my sec sch teacher mark papers. heee :D
hmmp, i shall continue to work hard for it then!
no point getting upset about what i cant do but to put in more effort to improve on my weaker areas.
for moving arts as well.
no pain no gain (:

anw, sch's starting in 11 days including today.
but that sickening timetable and the results of CDS is not out yet!
has been anticiapting since last week.
need to do some planning you see.
and also to apply for LOA.
it better be out by tmr or latest next mon!

oh and my birthday is in 2 days time?
yes and maybe the next time i look for a job i can officially say that im eighteen and quit saying turning in front. :D
hmmp, actually i dont feel it coming but im just trying to get myself to be enthu about it as my brother told me before that everyone has the rights to feel special on their birthday so feel it(:
but this year is quite predictable, i will be having ballet at movings arts in the night. -luckily it's ballet otherwise i will be damn stressful if its contem. heh-
and either go out with fil anf ly or just plainly slack and prepare for dance at home in the day.

thats why fil and i was saying like our birthday this year seems alittle boring.
when people ask how do we do on our birthdays, we would be saying
" oh slacking at home, watching tv"
or " stretching at home, waiting for dance to start"
haha! seems just like a normal day, nothing special.
but no lah, fil and ly has planned to celebrate it on sunday (:
my family tmr night
and my relatives last sun -pretty early huh? oh and rare too haha -

lastly,
it seems abit weird because unknown people has been dropping by my blog
even though my blog has been like on and off.
fortunately they are not some spammers and all
but instead they give pretty good advice
special thanks to sprite ice and passerby (:
even though i have a feeling that they might be the same person.
haha, the name sprite ice seems funny though.
just alittle curious why dont you guys reveal your true identity?
but haha, oh well, it's your choice.

uh well, like what i mentioned in the previous entry, shitty feeling comes once in a while.
it's just the matter of how we are able to cope with it.
i have not found a solution as i believe it's a tough one this time round.
but i just refused to let it get over me
because it is always easy to let negative thoughts influence your mind
and ruin your rationality
therefore im taking it easy and see how it goes
since worrying doesnt make the it disappear afterall.
this is the only thing i like about problems.
as it made me stronger everytime i sort of figure it out(:


till then (: