dancingwithmygirlishwilfulness

Wednesday, May 30, 2007 9:22 PM

due to special request.
i have enlarge the wordings.
hope it helps.
ahahas.

I'm lazy to upload photos again.
so i shall just do the usual stuff.
SPOUT.

alright,
first on list.
WHATEVER &ANYTHING
non-carbonated & carbonated DRINKS.
it's quite cool uh!
with different types of drinks behind the ANYTHING & WHATEVER labels.
super cute.
i wonder who is the kind soul that treat everyone those drinks on last friday.
we were practically falling in love with the guessing game.
like "OMG, this taste like. . . uhh apple tea!"
"ohh yes, it is apple tea. what about this? . . . PEPSI! "
"ahh, YESYESYES. that one leh? . . . "
and we kept exchanging each other's drinks.
HOW FUN!

second on list.
YES.
O LEVEL MT PAPERS.
for paper one,
it's not too bad.
I'm quite satisfied.
special thanks to liying for allowing me to use her electronic dictionary which i hardly use.
because my hanyupinyin is that poor.
SORRY TOO.
took your ED end up not using diligently.

PAPER TWO?
the thought of it makes me want to laugh my ass off.
WHY?
because i was shocked by the teacher's sudden
" OKAY, YOU'RE LEFT WITH 15 MINS MORE"
and my Chinese word became some unknown words.
another thing was,
i bet most of us didn't have enough time to finish the last comprehension.
thus all of us were like rushing like hell.
the expression of everyone's face makes me feel like laughing.
HARD.
as I'm also one of them.
damn funny.
you all should lift up your head to witness it.
LAUGHS!

in addition,
i was actually smiling to myself,
hoping the invigilator won't notice my expression.
however, i guess they did.
which explains the reason why they kept moving near my seat
and stare at me.
like as though im going to cheat or something.
-.- ARGGHH.

alright,
and in a few sec time,
im back to the paper.
trying hard to fight against the time and cramps.
so as to complete the last comprehension.
those cramps are seriously not helping.

by the time ms lee announce that we were left with one min,
i've done the whole paper.
obviously i anyhow scribble for the last comprehension.
ARRRGGGHHHH!
if i get lower than an A,
because of the last comprehension
-not that i will know that the fault lies on the last compre-
i swear i will screw myself up.
please! i don't want to retake!
ahh, WHATEVER.
I'M DONE WITH IT.
WHAT AN EXAM.

after that,
watched syf dvds with fellow dance mates again.
actually most of them are very good!
not only AJC , VJC AND SAJC.
all jcs are very good!
I'm impressed at deyi secondary.
the guys can do an air split!
double time!
god, i bet they are from wushu, aren't they?
there's this girls school which i forgot which is it already,
is also not bad!
obviously,
it's syf dvds based on schools getting
GOLD and GOLD WITH HONORS!

yesterday,
i almost regretted going to school.
because i was late for at least half an hour.
overslept was an excuse.
although it's true that i overslept.
but it's due to my laziness and cramps
that made me want to just
stick my head on the comfy pillow,
wrapped myself with dolphins, bears and blanket.
which apparently, i did.
ahahas.

so i didnt went for amaths,
instead i went for chemistry.

today went for chemistry.
paid attention. :D

went studying with lin lin after that.
special thanks to lin lin for treating me drinks and snacks.
hee.
it's my reward for solving maths sums for you eh?
nah, kidding.
i can't even solve some.
but it's has been a great time studying with her.
she's a very studious girl.
even if she's tired, she will try her best to finish those sums.
super hardworking!
ROLE MODEL!
must be like her.

ohh yes,
borrowed 2 books.
can't wait to read them!
but first, i have to finish my brother's homework.
SIGGHHH
i seriously hate ENGLISH!
wait until i master it,
i guess by then,
i will love it.
we'll see.
maybe until my next life,
i will still be saying.
WAIT.
wait till i master it . . .
yes, thats how pathetic i am.

oh well oh,
-i know it's well oh well, it was deliberately-
back to today,
watched so you think you can dance season 2.
saw BENJI!
whooh!
ahahas.
anyway,
my main focus was.
the lady that was voted out today doesn't deserve to be out.
well, sigh.
what can i do right?

i just cant wait for everything to happen for now.
DANCING, SWIMMING, GYM-ING, STUDYING, BOOKS, HANGING OUT, AND BLAH BLAH BLAH.

unfortunately.
that is not going to happen.
as i said,
BROTHER'S HOMEWORK!
plus, im tired. :P

LOVES ;
MARSHMALLOWS, WAFFLES, ICE CREAMS, CREAM BREAD.
-i should see them as fats-
BUT man, they are so addictive!

P.S I ENJOY LOOKING AT THE CLOUDS!
LOVE THE GREENY GRASSLAND AND BLUEY SKY.

I'M GOING TO REVAMP MY BLOG!
wait and see.
god, did i say wait again?
;P

Friday, May 25, 2007 9:12 PM

SO YOU THINK YOU CAN DANCE IS EXTREMELY EXCITING!
AND ENTERTAINING!
yes, i know im kind of outdated.
but it's because i didnt get a chance to watch it that time.
for the first season,
I SIMPLY LOVEEE MELODY!
she is FABULOUSLY FANTASTIC!!!
totally impressed!!
really inspired me!!
I SIMPLY CANT LIVE WITHOUT DANCE!

today,
went to dance studio to watch syf performances!
ALL THE JCs ARE SUPER GOOD!
especially SAJC, VJC and AJC.
hope i didnt left out any.

afterthat went to jia hui's house and had a terrific day!
ultimate fun day!
thanks to all!
really enjoy being with you all!
however, my hand phone battery is low
thus cannot take alot of photos.
sigh~ nevermind then.

ALL THE FOR O level MT EVERYONE!
shall update more maybe next time.
as i will surely waste alot of time blogging.

AM SO IN A DANCING MOOD!
my passion for dance is still burning HOT.
LOVES -

and yes,
i am BRENICE ;DD
everyone recognize me with that name now.
especially STONEY HIDIR.
haiyoh.

by the way,
I WANT TO GO AJC or SAJC!
CAN GOD PLEASE GIVE ME A MIRACLE!
-sscccrreeaaammsss-

SPUR ME TO SUCCESS.
dare to dream.

p.s IM DUPER HIGH NOW!
just feel like spinning around my house, do some jetes, pirouette like nobody's business, jumping and the list goes on.
;P

Thursday, May 17, 2007 4:19 PM

TAGS REPLIES!
SORRY FOR THE LATE REPLY PEOPLE!

zi hui - i thot my flexibility was deteriorating too so i did stretching whenever i can. :D
and now im improving. do it while doing hmwk! IT WORKS! but sometimes i cannot concentrate on the homeworks cause it hurts like hell. xP

liying - ahahas, yes. this issue over already then i reply. how funny! :P

boy in dance - lil bro DARREN. will definitely link you soon. wait patiently and u will see your name on my link list. xD

jeffy - THANK YOU (: nah, it's okay. take cares ;D

sorry for not updating.
really dont feel like blogging.
anymore.
did i say anymore?

alot of events have happened this few weeks.
and obviously im so not going to elaborate all.
just some major happenings that made an impact on me.

first on list.
is none other than.
MYE LANGUAGE PAPERS.
english papers :
it's like.
SHUYU,
YOU CAN JUST STAY AS A SECONDARY TWO STUDENT.
with this kind of standard.
you think you can pass Olevel huh?
DREAM ON.
goodness.
trust me.
it's THAT bad.
SIGGGHHHHHHHHHHHHH.

GOODBYE JUNIOR COLLEGE.
it's so heart breaking.
blame on my playfulness when im in primary school.
and my laziness when im in secondary school.
can god please please please bless me with determinations and motivations.
make me improve my language.

alright, fine.
i know that will never happen.
because all i can do now is to depend on myself.
which i have doubts in myself.
i only know how to bark.
but no action is done.
what an idiot.
SCREEAAMMMS.

MT papers.
in the previous entry.
i said i would be contented if i've gotten a b3.
HOWEVER,
after i check through the papers.
and find out those RIDICULOUS mistakes that i have made.
i seriously feel like slapping myself.
my standard hasn't improve since last year.
instead, it dropped.
from A1 to A2 then now B3
can you believe it?
i'm not boasting that i should be A1 standard.
but yes,
i should be getting A1.
you know why?
because CHINESE is one of the subject that i can depend on.
now look at what I've gotten?
B THREE?!

and please.
im not comparing nor hinting.
comparisons are odious.
i think you all should know what i mean.

next on list
REMAINING 5 SUBJECTS.
POA :
mr vale predict i will get 60+ marks.
felt alittle demoralised.

EMATHS :
hopefully on track.
A1 please!
2nd time taking.
shuyu,
DON'T LOSE FACE!
sigh.
A1?
can i?
i haven't even master some of the chapters!
and had been slacking.
faints.

HUMANITIES :
SS - have yet to revise.
geography is another thing.
standard dropping as well.

SCIENCE :
physic - coping well.
but need more revision.
chemistry - anybody know whats with the alkenes alkanes polymerisation blah blah blah?
ALOT OF DOUBTS!

AMATHS :
had a bad encounter.
from now on,
i will not copy questions that i dont know from the others.
shall only ask them to teach me.
so dont accuse me of becoming worst or something.
MID YEAR.
i will prove you wrong.

last friday,
had the worst night ever.
i got really dishearted and demoralised.
hot tears kept rolling down.
couldn't control at all.
my head was spinning and heavy.
my mind was in a mess.
crying is definitely the last thing i would ever want to do.
but all i could do was sobbing.
as most of my subject have not been showing any sign of improvement.
although math and amath are exceptional.
it was an ultra terrible night.
worst night ever.

despite all the crying,
i'm starting to slack on saturday again!
it's like.
WHAT IS WRONG WITH ME?
NONONONONO
NO MORE EXCUSES!

SIGGHHHHHHHHHH
i will try my very best to restrain from onlining and friendstering.
blog?
it depends.
only when i feel like.
because at least it can help in improving my language.

aiyah.
once again i'm going to say
ACTIONS SPEAK LOUDER THAN WORDS.
so we'll see.
i know i have already broken my promise.
i continue to online etc after saying that much about fighting my dreams.
what bull shit.
however, after some thinking.
i didnt really break that promise.
because it's either studies good or dancing is good.
i did stretching whenever i dont feel like studying.
and i can feel that im improving.
on my way to 180 degree side split(left with 4-5 fingers spacing -approximately-)
front split(only left with direction. meaning hips have to face in front. now is slightly to the side),
triple pirouette (turns),
although double pirouette only sometimes can.
near perfect jete.

was extremely happy for that.
this is an example of
"every ass loves to hear himself bray"
ahaahas.

although i know it's not good enough.
and there are definitely people who are better than me.
but well, as long as i find myself improving each day,
who cares if the others are better than me, right?
this is what i learn from ms vivienne.

the only thing i dont understand is.
how come i have so much motivation and determination in dance.
but not studies.
IF ONLY i can balance both.

NOTE : i will only link the recent bloggers during june hols. sorry, hope you all dont mind.

i'll see when we will meet again(:
maybe when i need to vent my frustration or share my elation.

just some extra informations.
current obessions - food: waffles, ice cream!
as for song : RUNAWAY by avril lavigne and GONE by kelly clarkson.
all these brightens my day. :D

Tuesday, May 01, 2007 12:41 PM

just a brief summary.

last monday :
feel really good about myself.
because i am in a ultra good condition.
fully stretched.
perhaps stretching during p.e lessons/in class helps alittle.
ahahas.

although down with cramps.
i'm still able to swim over, slightly good jete etc.
feel so proud of myself!

tuesday :
was NOT in a good condition.
low confidence.
dont know why.
maybe because i thought i might have hurt my shin.
plus i guess inner thighs are hurting again.
OHGOSH.
how wonderful can it be more to happen at that moment of time!
arrrgghhh~

and when i tried to swim over again,
i was worried about making those pains and aching worst
which might result in not dancing well in the actual syf day!
SIIGGHHH.
what a stupid thought of mine.

so yeah, i was like an idiot
hesitating for a really long time
(was in my max split position already)
until zi hui was like giving up on me.
cause i really took a long time.

and this was the time i really pressurized myself.
eveythime i cant do something.
i'd tell myself.
IF NOW YOU DONT "MASTER" IT NOW.
THEN HOW ARE YOU GOING TO SUCCEED IN THE FUTURE?
but at that point,
all my mind was thinking about is :
no, i cant do it.
it hurts!
ARRGGHH!
i.. jus cant.
WT*
I CAN'T.
WHY CLDNT I?
I JUST SIMPLY CAN'T
FFFFFF.

finally after 5 mins of inner struggles,
i picked up my courage andYES
JUST SWIM OVER
and within a few secs,
i was in a swim over position.
but i dont know what came over me.
i broke down.
i dont know if it's due to the pain or whatsoever.
or maybe i am really trying very hard to prove that im capable of something.
as all i can describe about myself at that point was USELESS again.

after letting it out.
felt a whole lot better.
which lead me back to the optimistic shuyu :D
and i was able to do more swim over.
WITHOUT HESITATING.
please, i hope the next time would be like this too.

ohh, that day we are allowed to be dismissed earlier than usual.

WEDNESDAY
THE JUDGMENT DAY!
-MYSTERY DE OCEAN-

early morning at around 6.15
we should be gathered in dance studio already.
but eventually, there were latecomers.
which includes me.
ahahas.
but, i wasnt the latest ;D

PEEP-
one msg recevied!
it was FILZAH!
she was the first who wish me luck for syf!
gee.
THANKS!

reached there at around 6.25.
all i see was grps and grps of ppl.
some slacking.
some waiting to draw their brows.
some putting on foundation.

by assembly, most of us have put on foundation.
but im totally annoyed with the foundation.
bloody troublesome.
and to make everything worst,
the foundation seems to make me have breakouts.
ARGHH.

after assembly
were just waiting for the teachers to help us put on make ups.
then came another msg.
and another
and more.
wow.
rather surprise!
THANK YOU SO MUCH EVERYONE!
really appreciated it! :DDD

by 9+
we had to leave already!
and the seniors came back to support us!
HOW TOUCHED!

when we reached there,
we were very anxious.
dare not waste any single secs.
luckily was in a good condition that day.

time past very fast.
DING-
next is us already!
we were EXTREMELY NERVOUS YET EXCITED.

annoucement :
NEXT IS XXXX AHMAD IBRAHIM SECONDARY SCHOOL.
PRESENTING MYSTERY DE OCEAN.

LIGHTS ON.
dancers ready.
set on stage.
music plays.
and there we go.
PERFORM-

and finally,
exit-

everyone was in a down down mood.
all of them blame themselves for not doing well.
well, yes.
i must say that all these are really HARDWORK.
and all these ends in this bloody hell 5MINS or so.

afterthat so as to smoothen our feelings.
we went to yingzhu's house again.
play badminton, read magazines blah blah blah.
then played some childhood games at her house downstairs.
aahahs.
IT WAS A TERRIFIC FUN FUN DAY!

THURSDAY.
RESULTS DAY + JIAHUI'S BIRTHDAY!

was not in the mood of studying the whole day.
all i was thinking was.
PLEASE NO COP.

finally
RIIIINNNGGSSS-
it's TWO PM!
but we've got to write down reflections first.
after some whining-s from everyone.
ms lee showed up a S!
we gotten a SSSIIILLLVVEERRR!!!
-SSSCCCRREEAAMMMSSS-
the studio got flooded with our cheerings and all.
it was a GOOD thing.
i will not cry
i told myself. (:

when got back to class.
and ms llysa asked about the result.
the moment i said silver,
the class scream alittle.
which make me rather touched ya.

just want to thank all TEACHERS (includes ms vivienne) for this 6 months.
and all the SENIORS PLUS SUPPORTERS who came.
AIDANCERS
all the text msg
anyone who have helped me one way or another.
the encouragement and support.
nothing can express my gratitude!
HEREBY THANK EVERYONE!
LOVE YOU GUYS!
will never forget this 2007syf experience.
beautiful choreography + music,
nice costumes +make ups.
wonderful teachers,
lovely dancemates,
no matter good or bad times,
it's been a great time working with all of you!

after the whole results and srp thing,
went to meet yingzhu they all.
as they wanted to celebrate jia hui's birthday.
but it was getting late and
we were all indecisive on where to go.
so we just loiter around the neighborhood.
until we settle down at the blk 123 playground.
had gossiping sessions.
ahahahs.

HAPPY BIRTHDAY MY DEAR TOASTYY!

FRIDAY
HALFDAY!
hooray!
last p.e lesson with mr check was okay.
quite fun with all the running and throwing of balls.
but catching it may not be a fun thing.
ahahas.
because you might have to end up running after the ball.

after school.
went home straight.
then meet filzah at 12.45.
this time we went to marine square.
it was a ENJOYABLE DAY with her too!

will upload photos during june hols?
ahahahs.
by then, i guess it will flood my whole blog.

ohh ya.
THE DANCE FLOOR WAS ABSOLUTELY FANTASTIC!
WATCHING THE DANCE FLOOR CAN BE RATHER EXCITING!
was screaming and clapping and pi-rouetting and danced a lil round my house!
I LOVE ALL OF THEM
but i love SOUL FUSION AND PLATINUM MORE!
not because they are my instructor's friends or what.
their technics are really really good!
still.
SIIGGGHHH.
they are not the winner.

anyway,
yesterday was MT PAPER.
it suck totally.
i can feel that my standard has dropped.
trust me.
the papers was like
SHHHIIITT.
i didnt finish my compo well!
dont have enough time to check pp2!
GODDD.
at least give me a B3?
SIIGGHHH~

however,
YST WAS A TERRIFCALLY FUN DAY TOO!
all the candids with them.
esp marshiela.
darn FAR-NY!

so long guys.
got to go do some work.
i guess might be blogging more often than online.
maybe?
i have no idea.

DANCEWITHPOISE.
LOVING DANCE!