CAUTION : today's entry is BORINNG!

OMMMGGGGGGGGGGG.
today is definitely NOT my day.
double SIGHHHHH.

it start off with a splitting headache in the morning.
however, i bear with the pain and rush my reference for com skills.

butttt it's past ten and ive yet finish my referencing.
so i decided to take a risk.
thinking that i will not miss my bus even if i leave house at 10.30.

so i chiong out of my house at 10.30.
hoping to catch the 10.45 bus.
but the bus arrived later than usual.
which result me being LATE.
ALMOST MARKED AS ABSENT!
fyi: if late for more than 15 mins, we will be marked as absent.
i reached 1216!
thankfully the POM teacher was kind enough to mark me as LATE.
phew.
thats the only good thing that happened to me today.

AND,
SIIIGGGHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH.
I swear i am so gonna fail COM SKILLS.
As my points are not coherent, and i wrote less than perhaps 300 words when it supposed to be a 600 words essay.
im not exaggerating.
TRUE ENOUGH.
i know what will my grade be already.
i wasnt really confident initially and this has definitely make it worse.

once i realised i spent too much time on outline,
i panic.
and it didnt go away.
in fact, guilt came by next.
knowing that ive brought this upon myself.
shouldnt have slack but to practice on writing.
to make things worse,
I was super stressed that my whole mind was filled with just two words "GIVE UP"
dont know if i should say that im hopeless or helpless.
omg.
i practically feel like crying on the spot!
but well, you know, i never like crying in public.

moreover,
the thing is that actually i make myself believe that i am able to do it with the help of useful researches ive found.
BUT due to TIME constrain.
am not able to get the full info from my research so
i just jumbled everything up and wrote RUBBISHHH.
plus my explaination and parapharsing are very poor.
which obviously adds on to my pressure.
in addition, i got confused by whether we are allowed to lift from the sources that we have gotten.

HMMMPPPHHH.
although i know ive done badly,
i still desire for a PASS please.
SIGH.

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bus rides today aren't enjoyable too.
i was stupid to be kind on days when i have headaches.
as i offer to let the elderly sit, thinking that i will eventually still get a seat.
but nooo. i was just push further and further until the furthest end.

and someone stamped on my foot for more that i think 5 secs while i was struggeling to balance myself when the bus was turning a sharp half U.
the pain was bearable but argh, the headache was just not helping and it affects my mood.
got alil pissed by that.

not only that,
an old granny sort of fall on me to support herself.
not that i mind but i was just shocked.
seems like im a cushion for everyone today uh.

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another thing that i simply cannot stand is my family's nagging.
i really dont know what to say.
really hate them commenting about me when they know nothing about me.
need a breather desperately.



GOD.
am i becoming more pessimistic?
grumbles.


i guess thats why i love looking at the sky.
cause the sky seems to symbolise freedom and carefree.

Sunday, May 11, 2008 9:47 PM