dancingwithmygirlishwilfulness

Saturday, June 30, 2007 1:13 PM

urmh.
should i say this is a crazy/clumsy/stressful/bitching/humid/lazy/slacking week?
alright.
fine.
cancel lazy and slacking.
because im always slacking and lazing around.
what an idling idiot.

okay, now i shall elaborate what kind of a week is this.
firstly.
due to watching dramas, slacking and napping the whole afternoon!
the only time that i could start studying is like around after 10?
thus that means
i would only sleep at 1-2am in the morning.
moreover, even if im super sleepy.
i will never get into deep sleep.
which resulted in my heaty- ness.
and DARK RINGS!
every morning i thought i saw a haggard woman in the mirror!
thats why i say it'a a crazy week.
to conintue slack and nap during exam period.

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few days ago,
my left lower calve accidentally hit onto the edge of my brother's bed frame.
it's because the frame hates me.
yesterday,
my left upper calve accidentally hit onto a box of how-i-know stuff.
i bet it's something i shouldnt know.
today,
my right foot hit onto a metal chair while i'm trying to give my mother 40 cents!
god forbids me to give 40 cents to my mum.
alright2,
the fact is
im just plainly CLUMSY.

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due to last minute studying.
I'd always get panic just a few hours before exams.
thus stressing myself to really study
and not to give up until the exams end.
if only im that determined like one month ago.
-rolled eyes, SIGH-

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haven been bitching lately.
wednesday,
supposed to go home after buying waffles.
but met zi hui, sze sing and li jing.
so yup, we ended up BITCHING.
thursday,
coincidently met zi hui and peeps again
as filzah wants to go macD.
after that when filzah and sze sing had left,
li ying, li jing and zi hui continued
our second bitching session!
and,
yesterday,
deliberately met up with zi hui and marshiela.
THIRD SESSION.
ahahas.
even after marsheila had left,
zi hi and me continue to bitch.
we can chat ranging from relationships to likings and blah blah blah.
BITCHING SURE DOES IS OUR FAV. PASTIME!
GIRLS !

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humid weather.
it sure does piss people off.
well,
except for i think tuesday night.
it was pouring the whole night!
i felt as if im in a air-con room instead of a room
which consists of an insignificant fan blowing.

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alrights,
now i shall talk about the papers.
do i actually dread about this topic?
well, for combine sciences and POA.
YES.
goodness me.
i have time to study for poa.
however, i wasted it.
how unorganised am i.
urgh!

As for chemistry.
i gave up.
I'd only start studying for chemistry after mids.
last min studying doesnt work for chemistry!
i swear i will concentrate in chemistry class!
if anyone notice me dreaming away,
slap me man.
i cannot afford to slack anymore.

physic,
it wasnt easy i guess.
SIGH.
gotta aim for high marks for science-s paper one then.

combine humanities should be the subject that im quite proud of.
as i wrote alot even though i studied last minute.
Emaths should be my most satisfying subject.
obviously,
i supposed to complete that subject last year okay.
thankfully, i re-take it.
because i understand it more this year.
no offence to anyone

amaths is still okay?
but no matter what,
gotta work hard for paper 2!

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i remember one of the night when i was about to give up studying and go to bed,
while packing my stuff,
i caught a glimpse of a variety show on channel u.
ohh yes, it's the yu le bai fen bai.
then i realised the guest for the day was jolin tsai yi ling!
i dont know since when i begin to admire her talents.
perhaps it was when she started the wu niang, dancing diva album.
on that day, they were recommending her vcds or something.
so they showed some parts of the vcds.
it shows us how jolin persevere during dance practices and made her concert a success.
maybe it did brainwashed me or something.
it made me realised that she is a remarkable singer/dancer!
CHEERS FOR JOLIN! (:

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alright, CHILL.
it's gonna end soon.
mom's bugging me too.
but it's like i didnt online for more than a week okays!
urgh.

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just want to say.
WAFFLES WITH CHOCOLATE AND KAYA IS HEAVENLY DELICIOUS!
super addictive but cant eat offen. :(

CHEERS FOR BITCHES :)
and JEERS FOR EXAMS! :/

p.s dsa doesnt want me.
sigh, it's alright then.
i guess it's all fated.
plus alot of people say dsa peeps have higher chances of retaining.
my aim is only the dance society anyway.
i guess there are many other ways to purse dance and studies at the same time. (:

JIAYOU ALLL THE WAY! (:
eveyone and me!

TOODLES

Wednesday, June 20, 2007 10:14 PM

imagine my feeling right now.
it's like my mind is jumbled into a mixture of
what can i say
decisions?
worries of the possible consequences if i dsa?
negative thoughts?
fear and worries are conquering my heart.
you could say that i was almost helpless.
i was rather paranoid when i was told that tomorrow we will be sending out our dsa forms.
luckily,
it is postpone to friday.

this few days,
i have been considering about dsa thingy.
i told myself i could handle this.
as ive always been.
sometimes i wish i could really rely on someone.
however, i guess it's just not the time yet.
moreover, it takes time to find my umm prince charming?
ahh.
whatever.
i shouldnt be thinking of this right now.
i guess too much of dreaming isnt helping.
should i blame it on those novels?
ahas.

speaking of novels,
goodbye ruby tuesday is an enjoyable novel.
it's so good that i got the urge to complete it
which surprisingly i almost did.
i read up till 5plus in the morning on umm considered tuesday.
it has unexpected events in between
and beautiful morals which ended with a happy ending.
somehow it taught me a lot of things in life.
communications does play an important part in relationships.
not only in BGR but also in kinship.
the way how human misinterpret their body language with one and other.
and the way they'd protect themselves from getting hurt.
all these are described amazingly in the novel.
there are still lot of things i'd love to typed out
but, well.
back to dsa.
-weak smile-

dsa to me.
is scary thing.
im afraid of the result!
you could bet that im almost freaking out right now!
it's like.
im a NA student.
with not promising results.
flexibility?
compared to the jc-ians,
i felt useless.
-i know, i've said comparing is odious. but what can i do? no one ever gave up comparing!-
furthermore,
they'd have to look at my application form before allowing me to the auditions.
which im very afraid of.
seriously.
BUT even if i able to get it to auditions,
i'll be afraid of the next stage.
and if finally i got a place in that school
which i doubt alot so.
i will be worrying about my future school life in school.
will i get discriminate?
or will i not cope well?
AND if im not able to get in even to the audition stage.
i bet i will cry my heart out and accept the fact
that i am not up to their expectations and work harder for Os
so as to prove that i can make it with my academics.
-which i dont have much confident too-
MAN, im contradicting again!
pardon me.
i have never ending worries!
i think the main thing is,
im afraid of being alone!
of dancing solo or interview by the unfamiliarised faces.
or maybe even the journey to the school.
SIGGGHHH
i feel like as if im going to have a heart attack real soon.

this dsa thingy made me have insomnia.
plus it has made my life not fulfilling
as ive been just plainly thinking of the positive
but mostly negative consequences of dsa.

if you think im a panicing freak or some kind of idiots who are worrying for nothing,
then please get lost.
im different from you.
however, i dont mind sensible comments.
thank you.
and
GOODBYE.

P.S despite of feeling rather unstable.
i have to say.
I LOVE DUMPLINGS!

fly me away with you,
to the furthest end of the world.
where there would only be me and me
enjoying the carefree life.

Friday, June 15, 2007 1:23 PM

TAGS REPLIES!
liying- it's OKAY for that time!
SORRY for this time anyway.
YES, dried skin has peeled off.

shiela - NOPE. just 10 entries. ahahas.
too long?

zi hui - ALRIGHTS (:

sindhu -SURE ;D

URGGHHH.
cant stand it.
i have to complain.

the sun burnt is AFFECTING MY DAILY LIFE.
I HATE IT.
i have so many plans yet i cant fulfill them.
the worst thing is i cant jump and dance.
okays, maybe not.
but sleeping like a corpse (TOUCHWOOD) can be rather uncomfortable.
all i can do is to just lie flat.
which resulted in a slight back ache.
my hair is super dry
because the sun burnt on my shoulders will hurt if i raise my arms.
moreover, it can be itchy sometimes.
making me extremely annoyed.

furthermore,
when i went to amaths yesterday.
aarthi forgot that i have sunburnt
and accidently smack on my shoulder.
luckily it's not a hard one.

as usual,
amaths was extended.
thus, i am not abe to meet marshiela & peeps again.
SORRY!
after that, met zi hui for lunch.
cause i know she'd surely be alone at home.
ohh, im such a kind person.
ahahas.
KIDDING.

went to the sembawang library.
supposed to study.
but we ended up looking at library books.
zi hui sometimes also forgot about my sun burnt.
so yea, you should know what happen.
fortunately, i didnt scream in the library.
ahahas.

finally,
we went to mac to study.
studied for like an hour or so?

yesterday night,
i got into a few hours of deep sleep.
AL LAST!

by the way.
SYTYCD2 finale was TERRIFICLY FANTASTIC!
god.
I LOVE ALL FOUR OF THEM
BENJI, DONYELLE, HEIDI AND TRIVIS!
this show has certainly changed some the contestants life
for example : donyelle's heart warming story.
and BENJI?
America's favourite dancer!
yes,
and i guess it has inspired me a lot.
ranging from the choreography to facial expressions.
i have learned a lot as well.
i really hope to be like them one day.
bless me man.

alright. now, i have to get back to work.
books to read and brother's hmwk again.
SIGHH.

plus 9 more days to MIDS.
SHHHIITTT!
i kinda dead.

goodbye for now.
dont miss me. (:

HOORAYS FOR SYTYCD1&2
when is the third season coming up?
-awaiting-
LOVES.

SUN BURNT PLEASE RECOVER SOON!
wasted a lot of time.
have to get things done!

Wednesday, June 13, 2007 1:41 PM

NOTE:
please call me directly.
dont sms me until this saturday.
im left with THREE free pathetic sms.
thanks (:

it's my first time that my sms usage is almost over the limit.
i guess i have too much programs.
plus our indecisive mind.

monday,
went jogging with zi hui before dance.
dance was hmm, okay?
even though most of the time we were doing nothing but chit-chatting.
because they are preparing for national day.

afterthat,
jia hui, zi hui, li jing and me went to northpoint STARBUCKS to
BITCH/GOSSIP.
it's definitely our favourite pastime huh?
sad thing is ying zhu cannot join us.

yesterday,
amaths was canceled.
thus the 4 papers will be delayed again.
went swimming plus tanning with liying.
i wonder if im starting to regret for staying under the sun for too long
after looking at my peeling skin.
but i guess,
NO, i quite like my tann now.
at least my complexion is quite balanced now.
okay, maybe except for my legs.

after swimming,
supposed to meet my grandma.
but as i was not satisfied with my tann due to the weather.
i decided to not go out with them.
as even so, i can only go for like 1-2 hours.
eventually,
liying and i went to j8 to meet filzah in the late afternoon.
had a umm studying session?
for only like less than 30 minutes?
ahahas.

today,
supposed to go support ms Vivienne's choreography : BAA!
and meet marshiela & peeps to study.
however,
my sun burnt is terrible!
and the tissues in my arms seems to be tearing.
feeling very heaty too.
because i bite on my ulcer TWICE yesterday!
thus, everything is canceled. :(

it's okay.
LATER!
SO YOU THINK YOU CAN DANCE 2 FINALS!
excitedexcitedexcited!

oh yes,
hasnt been sleeping well this few weeks.
and the sun burnt made it worst.
im extremely sleepy right now
however, i just couldnt enter my land of dreams.
URGH!

whatever.
anyway,
got to finish up 4 amaths papers by tomorrow.
sigh.

another thing.
SHOULD I D-S-A?
direct school admission through dance.
i have to decide by next week.
SIGHHHHH!
hate making decisions.

alrights,
now let you all take a look at my sun burnt.

it's like RED?
red = burning sensation = pain.

however, i love my tann! :D
even if it will only stay for a few weeks?
hee.

P.S will not update often.
dont ask why,
should know the reason why. (:

I LOVE LOOKING AT THE CLOUDS ;)
NO MORE TANNING FOR NOW,
maybe only JOGGING? xDD

BUT ALL I WANT NOW IS
QUALITY OF SLEEP!

Wednesday, June 06, 2007 9:34 PM

ohh alright.
it's been another week.

last wednesday was PEI SIANG'S birthday!
andd,
last thursday was vesak day.
as well as my beloved MEI XIANG'S birthday!
HAPPY BELATED BIRTHDAY TO BOTH THE S/XIANG-S.
ahahas.

monday,
went to school for amaths remedial.
BUT last min got to know that mr sootho was not feeling well.
thus remedial was canceled.

so i decided to go for dance instead.
however,
i was like roaming here and there.
worrying about my attire and hair.
didnt bring any hair net or clips
and no pe shirt.

thank goodness,
jowell has an extra pe shirt which jasmin supposed to return.
however, jowell agreed to lend me! :D
THANKS TO BOTH!

it was the usual stretching.
but this time they are in the mids of preparing for national day.
so im fortunate enough to learn some chinese, malay, indian dance and ballet.

left at around 11.45?
after liying miss called me for like 32 times?
CRAZINESS MAN!
not as if im not going to pick up or something.
it's just that my hp was in silent mode.
GOD.

alright,
so i accompanied her to buy some pet stuff for her 2 little cute hamster.
and after that, she followed me to look for something i want?
ahahas.
fair and square.

when she rushed back for co.
i met up with my colleague.
had a great time.
and YA, got to know more places huh?
ahahas.

yesterday,
went for physic practical.
it totally bring down people's mood.
seriously, it was disastrous.
we were like some BLUR SOTONGS
trying to get the ammeter moving.

afterthat went to gym.
cycled and ran for 30 mins.
guess i have eaten alittle too much before exercising
that i vomit out a small portion of what i've eaten.
goodness.
but i felt better after vomiting and burping.

thus went to cck swimming complex to meet my juniors as planned.
it was quite fun.
i actually forgot how to swim.
can you believe it.
as in i forgot how to breathe while swimming.
argh!
i want more SWIMMING & TANNING!
even if i can only be tanned for a short period. :D

today, supposed to go swimming too.
but it was canceled last minute. :(
nvm, theres always next time.(:

by the way,
have been reading lately.
GOODBYE RUBY TUESDAY.
it's an exciting novel.
in a way that you can never predict whats going to happen next.
and when you found out what happen,
it can be rather unexpected.
which made me very eager to finish the whole novel. :D
and yes, the english is powerful.

plus,
SO YOU THINK YOU CAN DANCE2.
i never failed to get motivated to stretch while watching it man!
inspire me a lot!

BENJI IS SUPERB MAN!
his partner dawnyell too.
i agree that they are very entertaining!
i think i spelled her name wrongly.
ahahas.
so anyway,
i felt that jessica and james are technically brilliant too.
however, maybe they were not entertaining enough
thats why they were voted out.

cant wait for tmr's SYTYCD2.
i know im outdated.
but thats just because i missed it when it was still on date okay.
so dont mind me commenting on something outdated.
hee.

ohh yes, tmr have amaths.
YAAAWWNN.
and i guess tmr is work day.
gotta finish up my brother's hmwk and some other sch work.
SIIGGHGHH.

anybody interested in swimming?
gym-ing?
:D