although it has only been a few weeks,
i am more troubled than before.
sighhhhhhh.
how i wish that time will just stop at that moment where i dont have to worry about anything.
but of course, it's impossible and i know that i will have to face it.
otherwise i would be escaping from reality.
which i totally shouldnt.

no, it's not results.
i think ive did pretty well as ive done my very best and i guess my efforts are welly paid off (:
CHEERS to that.
nevertheless, i shall continue to work hard on sem2,
especially when there is CDS. -mannn, i wonder what i got in!-
just hope that i can cope with sch, dance and maybe work as dance training for moving arts will increased 4 times a week during nov and dec. :/
hmmmmp, but if you think that im worrying about this, you're wrong.

so what am i worried about?
i wont reveal.
perhaps i can put it this way.
i feel that i am being forced to grow up.
not that im not growing.
okay maybe physically which i have no choice -genes.
but mentally.
and i feel the huge responsibility on my back.
seriously, i dont understand certain things.
i just hate the fact that they simply just ignore the situation we're in and do almost nothing about it. ARGH.

sometimes i really wonder who create this world and why did he/she/it created it?
why do we even exist?
-not that i have suicide intention-
just that sometimes i get sick and tired of it.

oh i know i know.
it's just part and parcels of life.
these obstacles will eventually be overcome.
at least i hope.

alright, let drop that subject.
urhhhmmm.
so hols has been i-have-no-eye-deer-how-to describe-it.
maybe what i can say is not as fulfilling as what i have thought
and definitely not as relaxing.
i am kind of LOST.
alot of things are left to ponder.
as though i leading life aimlessly in the ocean.
hmmmp,
cant wait for sch to start,
so that i only have to concentrate on studies.

what i really want now is.
TRANQUILNESS.
):
can anybody get it for me?
thank you.

Sunday, September 07, 2008 10:09 PM