CONGRATS TO MY BROTHER!
gotten the scholarship.
to study in UK.
we're really3 ELATED.

BUT WELL,
this could mean that.
i MUST MUST MUST get in to university.
get a degree at least.
ya right.
DREAM ON.

i wish i could.
GOD,
can you just like enhance my brain cells?
or like make me smarter.
or at least alittle more determine
or endure more
or alittle less lazy
AHHHHHHHHHH

i only love dancing.
dont feel like studying.
but well, my flexibility is another prob!
i might look that im okay,
but compared to the others.
i always feel so inferior.
so what can i do in the future?
TELL ME.

the fact is i can never be better than my brother.
and i always never fail to feel ashame of myself.

but i have admit,
my brother is my role model.
he is the only one that can really motivates me.
i will definitely miss him while he's away in uk.

the only thing i feel about myself now is :
USELESS.

and ive decided.
i want to say:
GOODBYE SHUYU.
I HATE THE LAZY YOU.

and i tell you all what.
instead of feeling low all the time.
and breakdown
-please, not depress okay-
im going to make my move.
something more meaningful.
i will not online,
but maybe blog and check on friendster once in a blue moon if needed.
eg after syf results.
UNTIL i got As on every subject.
i WANT to fight for my dreams.
i am different.
i have my stress.
and you all have yours.
i wouldnt care much about anyone.
and neither should you all comment on how i want to fight for my dreams.
although i am still uncertain about which path to go.
but for now.
im aiming for hopefully straight As if not,
a 180 degrees side split, nice turnouts, nice pointing and all.
and etc.

shallnt elaborate any further.
as long as i know what i should be doing.
alright,
i should get started.

and yea,
my mum told me.
O LEVELS is not PSLE.
i know2.
SSIIIGGGHHHH~

so long~
i hope i am still this determine after a few weeks or months or years.
FAREWELL.